dear god , today i learned what it truly means to love ,i hated it , i hated it so bad and while i know i am depressed, i know you are the only way out of it . i know my relation with her is over and while i was supposed to help her get cured from hers why am i suffering now ..i did what you told me to do so why i have to go through this now .you know how much i love her .i made a lot of mistakes along the way but i know now is the time to repent and i have repented . please god show me a way in to the light .i Hace tried and i have tried hard in this life to make some thing of it but i know this time if i dont get her i will never be able to love again...please god help me show me a way out of this situation ..please dear lord .create a miracle let me be with her atleast make me capable of following my dream ..let me see the truth let me follow the light in to my future .i know that day i saw the numbers but dont remember if i played them may be i did maybe i didnt create a miracle god let me follow my dream .i really want to meet her be with her ..please god just once in this life and soon i want to be with her if it is not your will , i will gladly accept it but i dont want to go like this .for once hear my prayers lord i just want it to happen once heal my soul god heal it ...gimme what i deserve , peace , happiness and a way in to the light ..so i can follow your path to help others in need god i know evil is tryin to dissuade me and it almost did but i came back and ask for your forgiveness today so i can feel your presence ..i do remember our conversations and i do remeber the way you always guided me ,i never listened to you and this probably is the the last time i ask for this favour show me the light god ...make me worthy of achieving some thing in this life make me able to help those i love and those who need it let me be with you lord let me be able to go to usa for once to meet her so i can see her and tell her how much i love her ..make me worthy lord make me worthy of helping others ..and be good for life ..i know my true calling is else where to do some thing great gimme the means to achieve it gimme the power to make my dreams come true and let me help those who need it gos please help me let me be a soldier in your greater plans for mankind let me be at peace ...

Amen